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I’m not really sure what’s up with me right now. But I needed to vocalize it and put it down because I dont feel like I can really say any of this to anyone because it’s probably nothing and not a big deal or anything. So I obviously am pretty big, as I have been for a quite a while, over a year. And a lot of that was due to straight up binge eating issues I had for a while while I was over anorexic symptoms but still only starting to recover from bulimia.Now that i’ve shaken the binge eating for the most part (still over indulge, but socially now and with much less guilt attached to it), Ive just been thinking about how it probably would be a good thing to lose some of the weight I’m carrying-like i think i’m honestly almost overweight at this point. (though i have no real idea because i have refused to step on a scale for 2+ years now) BOOOYAHHHH. but this past week I kind of was like okay i’m just going to go on like a diet. Still eating all the food groups, even plenty of carbs like I used to avoid like the plague when i was sick, but at a much lower calorie rate than I have been at. I’ve also gone to the gym every day even after a long day at work (I work at a restaurant so im on my feet all day), but like, not going for too long or anyting. All of that’s normal right? I’m just so confused. I really really do need to lose some weight, because I’m too heavy and it would help my self confidence a lot and just make me healthy, right? So all of this is okay? I just feel like i have no idea if i’m over analyzing this. on one hand i feel like i should not fuck around with going on a diet for christssake, i used to be severely anorexic and bulimic not that long ago. then again im like well im totally recovered so a diet and exercising a lot isnt unhealthy right? please answer?
Honestly the best feeling in the world is when you pick up someone’s cat, and they’re like “I can’t believe she’s letting you hold her !!!” Like yes. I am the cats friend. The cat whisperer. The forest nymph. The cat charmer. Th e
